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My name is Christopher. I'm 19 years old, and I am morbidly obese. I know that's not such a great introduction, but that is exactly how I see myself right now. I have struggled with my weight for years and I have tried countless diets and programs, but have failed every time. Yes, of course, sometimes I lost weight. But what I didn't have was the motivation to continue. Why? I don't know. I guess it was important to me - but just not that important to me. I guess I wasn't truly ready to face my problem.
Today, it's different, however. I'm ready now. Really. Last night, before going to bed, I weighed myself on my bathroom scale like I normally do. The result I got was heart-breaking. "ERR". That's what the scale's digital display showed me - "ERR", for "Error". The scale could no longer even process my weight. I cannot even express into words how I felt at that particular time. I felt ashamed and scared at the same time. I went back to bed, and thought about it. Really thought about it. I kept seeing that red error message from the scale in my mind. How can someone - especially someone as young as I am - be so heavy? After a few minutes, IT clicked. Finally, IT clicked. When I refer to IT, I mean the defining moment where I truly decided to change my life. My family doctor told me about the IT moment a few years ago. My parents, who I love very much, were anxiously awaiting the IT moment too. Well, IT is here now. It's up to me to make the most of it. When IT came, it felt different than all the other times I decided to start a diet - and believe me, there were a lot of them. This is IT - the defining moment where I turn my life around completely. By this, I don't just mean what I eat and don't eat, because that's just a small part of the problem. I'm talking about my whole lifestyle turning 180 degrees. I guess I feel that I'm worth it now. Well, I always knew that I was somewhat worth it, but now I see that I am fully worth it.
I have decided to use this journal as a companion to my journey - a way to jot down how I am feeling, and what I am doing to reach my goals. This is my story. I am starting this journey as an obese young man who is at the lowest point in his life. It is my goal that when I finish, I will not be that same person. However, this is my raw and real story about my journey to become healthy, fit and well-minded - my journey to heal all the scars that this food addiction has caused me. It is up to me to find the light in what can truly be a new beginning. Please join me as I change my life forever.
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