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Yesterday was the definition of "overwhelming," but not insurmountable.
I use the word "overwhelming" because during my summative meeting with my principal yesterday morning, she asked me what had changed in me since last year. I could have begun with myself. I could have eloquently gone over all the physical and mental changes I had undergone, all the struggle I have had to face to continue losing weight and to believe that I was really changing physically. I could have told her how, because I was physically healthier, I was happier and energetic. Last year she said I was on autopilot -- just going through the motions of teaching, not really doing anything extra. I could have told her that this year, I was on TURBO. I don't think I've ever come to work this year not wanting to be here. I enjoy being here. I could have said all those things.
I tried to. Then I cried, and I don't think she really understood that at the moment I sat across her and she asked me that question, I realized that last year, she forced me to re-evaluate my priorities in life. She was right. I was on autopilot, and I needed to push the reset button and get myself together. And there I was, unable to explain all that to her, and I think she understands a small part of that... but when asked, I couldn't possibly explain myself.
She gave me EXCEEDS EXPECTATIONS. What a far cry from last year, when she almost put me below PROFICIENT. It was like someone whacked me. Yesterday, I thanked her for that because she refused to let me slack.
Sounds like Angel, right? Because if I could, I'd slack, but these two women won't let me. Dang it. Thank goodness they don't. If they did, I don't think I'd be happy at all.
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