Hi Cassie, Well all I have to say is "F them" it's nice to have that acceptance from your family but in the end it's all about what you want to look like or feel like, not what others want you to look or feel like. No one really cares as much as you do and no one is going to put forth the effort to get to your goal except for you. I understand that times get hard but that you actually recognize that you are having problems and feel depressed. That's when you need to put your foot down and say "screw all you guys" and just go out for a walk or do something that will help you and destroy you. Don't let anyone hold you down, no one said it was going to be easy but it can be done. you can do it :-)