Bodybeautiful870's Journal, 17 Oct 16

Hello Stranger....

Well, It's been a year since my last post and I am sorry.

I've let myself and my friends down. When I started this journey a year ago, I had every intention of blazing a major trail in my weight loss and finally getting my body and my soul matching. But, I relaxed, and procrastinated and then a year later and I am no better off then when I left. Shame on me.

I think the worst of it all is that bit of regret that says " what happened to your year?" " You could have been so different?"

It could have been different...

But, no time like the present to learn from mistakes.
We take what we know and expound upon that; in hopes we can improve beyond even our own expectations.

I messed up on a few things and underestimated how important they were. For example...

1) Stay diligent. Hold your self accountable first. Check lists, text messages from friends, journaling here or whatever keeps you motivated. Keep is close.

2) Don't use food as a reward. Yes, that cake is good. You already know how good cake is you've eaten it before. If it's not your off day DON'T EAT IT! I don't care if it's your Mom's-cousin-from your 3rd aunt-twice removed 110th birthday.
You have had that grocery store cake 1000 times. It's not your off day don't eat it!

3) 6 days a week. Gym time. 6 days a week. Even if it's just on the treadmill. Or elliptical. You don't have to be there 4 hours a day everyday. I don't even have that kind of time. But, I know if I am going to get this weight off. I'm going to have to stop hitting the snooze button and Get UP and Go to the gym. Yes, at 5:30am so I can get and hour work out in and still have time to shower and get to work. I'm just going to have to. I HAVE TO!


The top 3 rules I broke right there. I didn't hold myself accountable. I gave myself to cheat on myself. And I broke my own word. I told my self it was a special occasion and it would " be rude" if I said no. And it started a spiral where I just gave up and ate what I wanted. Top it all off with feeling like I was too ugly and fat to go to the gym. It's just further punishment I don't need to or have to put on myself. I know I'm not going to do a work out video at home, so pay the $10 a month and GO. And to heck with anyone that dares but a viral picture of my fat be-hind on facebook. What people will see is a woman trying to make herself into a better person. My heart and soul are good. It's beyond time for my insides and outsides to match.

Needless to say BB is BACK kiddos!! And this time it's personal.

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762 kcal

Fat: 42.54g | Prot: 23.40g | Carbs: 70.31g.   Breakfast: Red Delicious Apples, Great Value Sausage, Egg & Cheese Croissant Sandwich. Lunch: Kraft American Cheese Slice, Kraft Wheat Thins Original, Vienna Sausage (Canned). more...

3818 kcal

Exercise: Desk Work - 6 hours, Resting - 10 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...