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You know I am so amazed how different 1 person can feel from day to day. It is really odd how you can seem like a different person. I just read my last journal it is was rather happy. Today, I am miserable for some reason. I just feel yucky and fat and like nothing I do is good enough or really matters. Where the hell does that type of feeling come from???!!!!! I hate it SOOOO much.
I'm am feeling as if nothing really matters. Like everything is going to hell in a handbasket and that nothing I do is going to make a difference. I feel as if I am a big looser and not the weight loss kind. How can a person change so fast??? Why does a person change so fast?? Nothing bad has happened to me. I don't think i ate anything overly wrong. I am consistently making choices that while the will likely not help me lose weight, I should not put a ton on either. Why do i feel so crappy???? i think it is the fat that i am feeling in my tummy. i know I have not done anything overly wrong yet I can feel my fat getting bigger. I think that is the big culprit. That and possibly the fact that I am working alone and I prefer to have people near me Maybe that is one reason I am low. Plus, my office is in a state of change right now. Promotions and people moving around .... it is never good for moral and productivity for people to be uncertain about anything. Plus the weather is cold and rainy. Im normally hot natured but I have been freezing for over a week. My head hurts with sinus issues and my neck is killing me for some reason.
Does anyone have any cheese?????? this whine could really use some. brie or stilton would be most appreciated :)
Speaking of - is it true that too much cheese makes you not e able to go? if so, why? My Dear Darling is trying to convince me that it is true but I can't figure out a sientific reason for it.
View Diet Calendar, 05 December 2011:
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645 kcal
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Fat: 35.52g | Prot: 70.38g | Carbs: 5.89g.
Breakfast: Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds) , No Calorie Sweetener Packets, ham, bacon, Egg, Tomatoes, Cream (Half & Half), Coffee (Brewed From Grounds) , mushroom. Lunch: Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten). more...
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Don't have a scientific answer for the second part of your entry but I can tell you that I understand the first part. I used to have a line that I shared with my teachers when they would come to my office and be a bit down....I would simply say, "smile, things could be worse....and sure enough she smiled and things got worse." Just a little humor... There are so many factors that can change us from one day to the next in regards to our moods. All of us struggle and resent the fact that while we want to be in a good mood, we aren't at times. I think it has something to do with intent...if our intention is to be happy, we will be happy. I know that it is a full time job for me to stay happy...but I once lived in a huge pity pool and will never go back to that... I hope your day gets better and that you will find some great things to be thankful for and sunshine will once again shine on you.
05 Dec 11 by member: 2227Gwen
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I'll work backwards - as best I know, cheese does work as a binder...so for some it could make it very hard for you to go. Sorry your in a funk, the rain, work, belly fat...whatever... STOP IT! Seriously - you can always come here and vent - and you can always find someone to commiserate w/ you... and w/ a journal like this you probably will... but to what avail? What good is this gonna do you! You haven't weighed in since the beginning of November? Are you tracking your foods online? Do you have any goals specifically set? Do you have any exercise weekly goals? Any accountability? What are you doing??? If you are not focused on 'exactly' what you should be doing day to day, week to week... you're mood swings will easily derail you! Then certainly have me before! Now, I know you can do this! I know you want to do this!!! So - let's rephrase this little whine and cheese party... and move it into a celebration of small victories! You came on here and journaled!!! Victory number one! Did you know that people who track their foods are likely to lose DOUBLE what people who don't track are. I'm going to start tracking again, faithfully! How bout you? Much Love.
05 Dec 11 by member: jsfantome
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Thanks Paula. I have not been home since the beginning of November, Can't weigh in at a hotel. Think that is a big part of my issue - I want to go home. It is nice that the hubby is with me but - I want to go home. i want to sleep in my own bed with my own pillows :) I know it is silly but - it is what it is. I have not consistently been tracking my food. have simply had a very hard time doing so. not because i am eating so bad - but because the foods I have been eating have beed difficult to decifer. i was telling my husband at lunch that i will be so glad to get home so I can know what I have eaten. it is a luxury to eat out every meal in one way but a luxury to eat at home every day in another way. Today I had a chicken breast and some soup. But the chicken breast had cheese and grilled peppers and onions on it and the soup - well Im not sure what it was at all. Some broth, chicken probably, with some tomato and cheese and avocado in it. hard to track but I dont think it was overly bad for me. Breakfast was fine and i will likely not eat dinner. I am not getting my water in like i should mainly because it is too darn cold to drink water. Been drinking hot tea instead but don't count it as water. My plan is to go to the room and go to sleep. Im hoping to sleep off this funk and get back to normal.
05 Dec 11 by member: esimnons
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Gwen - thanks. you are correct - the sun will shine again... Just got to get this black cloud off my head.... I feel certain some sleep will be a great start. Getting rid of the headache I have had for over a week would be helpful. the blue skys will be back :)
05 Dec 11 by member: esimnons
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