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Just working... Not overly happy with my food intake right now... i don't have any heavy whilling cream so I am having to use half and half in my coffee and tea. it is freezing in this office (I think they are trying to kill me or give me pneumonia) and I have to have the tea :( I just can't drink it without cream and splenda in it so - bad food choices. At least it is Thursday :) I'm so ready for the weekend!!! And they say being cold burns more calories so - instant exercise :)
I understand that they are coming to the house to cut down my trees in the next couple of days. So sad as I love my woods but boy will it be good for my finances :) And really, I am not in the business of woods walking - I gotta have grass and pastures for my bucking bulls. I am so hoping things will start getting on the right path for me. 2012 can be a great year if things go the way they have for the past few weeks. regardless, it is going to be a great year because I am under more control. I feel much more like my old self and I am looking pretty good. it is amazing to me that I could look at myself in the mmirror this morning and say that i was looking rather pretty. Amazing I tell you. I have always hated to see myself in the mirror. Always thought I was really ugly. Now - Im so much more comfortable with myself. Im not ugly. I really mean that when i say it Very different than my normal self. Maybe I had to get into my late 40 to find myself or something... who knows. but I can say that I starte this journey and this hournal with the hope that i could improve myself in many ways - weight, self confidence, spirituality health.... everything. I feel I have been successful with everything but health. I feel really good about that. health will come. I know it. My stength of character is much better and eventually, i will find some way to strenghten my body. Maybe the horse will be the caatalyst I need.
i did not mean this to be a reflective journal - guess it just became that. There is a song that discusses the fact that you can learn to love anything and you pick your poison. I think that is true. I had picked the poison of eating and feeling bad about myself. Now, i am picking me. Eating right is not always easy... but I can learn to love it. same with stong self esteem. I can chose to have a good one. I can learn to love myself. not sure how many years it might take for me to really love myself but I am on the right track for certain. yippee
View Diet Calendar, 01 December 2011:
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1183 kcal
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Fat: 59.89g | Prot: 126.40g | Carbs: 35.58g.
Breakfast: mushroom, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds) , Cream (Half & Half), Tomatoes, Egg, bacon. Dinner: Sugar Free Hot Chocolate, Brie Light, Dry Roasted Pistachio Nuts (Without Salt Added), Green Snap Beans, Turkey Breast Meat and Skin, Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten). Snacks/Other: half and half, No Calorie Sweetener Packets, water, water. more...
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