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I feel amazing! I'm sleeping better, I'm more alert and active. I started my Couch to 5k app yesterday. It kicked my rear. My legs were on FIRE. But, today I walked with my mom, we made a 2 mile stent around the block and did well. Tomorrow, I'll pickup on day 2. Hopefully, now that I know what I'm in for I won't be so surprised.
And amongst all this; I worry sometimes. Is this really going to come off? Am I going to be stuck this way? How am I going to get this done? BUT for the first time in a long time I haven't just looked at my self and felt defeated. Maybe it's because I'm actually, keeping track and listening to the right people. Maybe, this really is my turn. I know that what I'm going through, someone else has gone through before. My news is not new news. Yet, it can fell like quicksand, and fast.
A few weeks ago my co-workers got this idea for the core 3 of us to go on a diet together, One wanted to lose her baby weight, the other had gained after a messy divorce and I was the perpetual chubby one not wanting to be fat anymore. I am the only one who even remotely stuck to something. Which is a new leaf for me. Most of the time I am the first one to bale. The other 2 had family this and that. They would start again; fresh this time... eventually. One finally admitted that she was going to have a burger at the ball park while her kids played ball. Honestly, that part made me a little jealous. I do love a good burger. ;)
What I really want, isn't for some one to do a "diet" with me; but to get victory over this the right way. To have the weight off and stay off. To start adding things to my bucket list. Instead of feeling like I would never get it done because, of "who I am".
I am far enough up this mountain that I can't go back, and I am too close to the peak to stop. But, I can't camp out in the middle either. I've put work in today. And I know it will pay off. One day at a time.
Nothing major today, just thinking out loud.
Love the Brotherhood.
-BB
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1818 kcal
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Fat: 75.75g | Prot: 105.52g | Carbs: 189.26g.
Breakfast: Cottage Cheese (Nonfat), Dole Diced Peaches in 100% Fruit Juice. Lunch: Vlasic Dill Pickle Spears, Ranch Salad Dressing, Great Value Romaine Lettuce, Tuna in Water (Canned), Mayonnaise, Cucumber (with Peel), Colby Jack Cheese. Dinner: Silk Original Soy Milk, Peanut Butter and Banana Sandwich. Snacks/Other: Oroweat 100% Whole Wheat English Muffins, Vanilla Ice Creams, Kirkland Signature Dark Chocolate Covered Almonds, Honeycrisp Apples, Isagenix SlimCakes Oatmeal Berry. more...
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3620 kcal
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Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 5.5/kph - 30 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 30 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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