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I know Flo is visiting, but 171 was definitely higher than what I expected to see on the scale. I know it was evening, I had food and water in my system and I'd just come from Spin class, and I probably won't see 171 tomorrow morning, but its bothering me.
I know I've relaxed a little bit in the past couple weeks... last week especially...my Nonno passed away and that made it hard to stick to my routine OR eat healthy. He was from Italy and naturally I wanted to honor him with the heavy italian meals from my childhood which I love so much. And red wine, which he used to make. Not to mention the added benefit of Aunt Flo's impending arrival...... it was a rough week and I know I could have done better but I didn't. There, I said it.
Anyway, I felt discouraged all day today. My pants which were quite loose a week or so ago felt tighter, and I felt generally heavier than usual. I hadnt stepped on the scale in a while but I was pretty sure I had put on a couple pounds. Desserts and pasta are my weaknesses and I did not hold back. It was emotional eating - i knew it, and I did it anyway. I felt a little better on Monday, had a healthy day food wise and hit the gym for body pump after work, but it went downhill when i got home. Husband brought home donuts (another weakness) and there was a little piece of cake in the fridge. I decided to go ahead and undo all the work I did at the gym that day, which I regretted as soon as the last bite was gone, as I always do.
So this morning I did not even look for my skinny work pants - right to the biggest pair. My heart sank when they felt tight. My own fault, I know. Still sucks, on a lot of levels, but mostly because I feel like I let myself down a little bit. I've done this gain-lose-gain thing enough times that I should freakin' know better. This feeling was exacerbated when I decided to see what Mr. Scale had to say to me this evening. I guess I was already down so I may as well find out. 171 - a good 6 lbs heavier than what I halfway expected to see, which is about 5 lbs heavier than what I saw a month ago, which is yet another 5 lbs heavier than my goal weight. Bummer, man.
But, instead of feeling sorry for myself about this, I am going to turn this into positive change. Okay - I messed up. Got a little lazy. Overindulged. Maybe got a little bored too. But we all mess up. What's important now is how I move forward. So... Spin class tonight + 15 extra arc-trainer minutes and a healthy chicken curry for dinner. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to make good decisions.
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1288 kcal
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Fat: 30.86g | Prot: 47.91g | Carbs: 82.88g.
Breakfast: Splenda x2, Cream (Half & Half), coffee, Splenda x2, Cream (Half & Half), coffee. Lunch: Eggland's Best Cooked Peeled Eggs, swiss cheese, jack cheese. Dinner: Chicken Breast (Skin Not Eaten), coconut milk, basmati rice, red wine. Snacks/Other: Dinner Potato Rolls. more...
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2794 kcal
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Exercise:
Driving - 1 hour, Desk Work - 9 hours and 30 minutes, Arc Trainer - 10 minutes, Spinning - 56 minutes, Sitting - 2 hours and 34 minutes, Sleeping - 9 hours and 50 minutes. more...
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