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Hello Buddies!!!
Ok, so now where to begin? I've been MIA here for a day and I'm sorry about that!
I went shopping at 3:30 AM yesterday and was on my feet for over 10 hours in lines...as were many of you I'm sure...
I'm not worried about gaining weight because of all the exercise I got yesterday...my feet are blistered up so can't do much today...
Thanksgiving was wonderful. I ate whatever I wanted and enjoyed my food! It was nice! And I had a revelation!
This may sound crazy but on Thanksgiving, I realized that food is "just food". Food used to mean SO much to me. But then I realized that Thanksgiving wasn't just about the "food" so much as it was the "company" of people that I love.
The "food" was just the icing on the cake. I realized that food doesn't mean to me what it used to anymore. It's not my friend. It's not my enemy. It doesn't make me happy, it doesn't make me sad. IT'S JUST FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you guys are understanding me because it's hard to explain what I mean by that.
My love affair with food is over. I ate in moderation and stopped when I was satisfied...and realized that I was content with the food on my plate...when I used to eat at Thanksgiving, as soon as I'd started on my first plate, I was thinking about my next plate. I never stopped to enjoy the food I was shoveling in my mouth right then.(kinda like a drug addict starting on their first bag of the day, dreaming of their next high...and yes, I know this, because I was addicted to coke for years...)
I had a serious food addiction. Just like one day I woke up and didn't wanna get high anymore...(and yes, it worked like that for me...) I don't wanna stuff my face anymore.
Food isn't what it used to be to me. It's suddenly lost its importance. It feels so good to eat veggies instead of brownies. It feels so good to KNOW what's going into my body. It feels so good to be responsible that I don't want to go back to not caring what I eat and how it's affecting me.
It feels so DAMN good to live and to care.
I won't go back for the world!
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