melmi20's Journal, 08 Nov 08

so, no need to guess that I've "fallen off the wagon"...so to speak. Gained 6 pounds...that doesn't feel good at all! For some reason, I thought that I could wake up and change everything...so magically. But, that's not the case. I didn't realize that this will be a constant struggle. I was struggling so hard to the point that I slowly weakened and I slowly didn't care anymore.

So, It's time for me to start over...renew my strength in my faith, my diet and in myself.

First things, first...admit my faults:
-I started eating white foods again
-I started eating processed foods again
-I stopped looking at labels and paying close attention to sugar content
-I stopped taking my multivitamin
-I ran out of my diabetic medication and stopped caring about trying to obtain more (b/c I have no health insurance)
-I indulged in more and more celebratory cakes at work (including two slices of my own birthday cake--ice cream @ home and double vanilla w/strawberry filling @ work)
-I stopped walking!
-I stopped my deep-breathing techniques
-I stopped going to the gym...that I was still paying for
-I stopped lifting weights

Well, you get the picture....I just stopped caring.

What finally woke me up?
-Feeling sluggish at work
-Feeling a slight numbness in my toes
-Missing the feeling of accomplishment

So here's what I'm going to do on this lazy Saturday afternoon:
-Go to gym (30 min elliptical...strength train on back and biceps)
-Throw out all foods that has anything HFCS, enriched flour, sugar content of over 4g a serving, and anything that seems too processed.
-Cook the salmon and green beans for dinner and throw out the left over linguine alfredo from last night
-Complete 120 deep breaths

Enjoy the rest of the day...wake up renewed tomorrow

Many blessings fatsecret family!

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1898 kcal

Fat: 123.61g | Prot: 91.51g | Carbs: 98.86g.   Breakfast: Natural Choice Smoked Deli Turkey, Deli Swiss Cheese Slices, i can't believe its not butter, Toasted English Muffins (Includes Sourdough, with Calcium Propionate, Enriched), egg, canola oil, Diced Potatoes with Onion. Dinner: Extra Virgin Olive Oil, balsamic vinegar, salmon, american salad. more...

4275 kcal

Exercise: Conditioning exercise (health club) - 20 minutes, Exercise machine (moderate) - 25 minutes, Resting - 15 hours and 15 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...