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Just do it is the theme for today.
I'm staying positive. I'm going to go to the park with Isis and get in at least 30 minutes of walking. It's cold out there but it's great because there's not many people and my dogs don't go crazy. I'll just bundle up. It's so much more fun going to the park and walking around looking at all the pretty leaves and running water than it is to walk around my crime infested neighborhood with the drug dealers standing on the corner and police driving through looking for people to arrest...
I'm really doing this, this time. I'm so excited to be living differently. It is hard to get used to and I have slipped up, but I know in my heart that it's different for me this time. Eating well is going to be a permanent life change for me. It's a gift I give to myself. There's so much more to it than simply losing weight. It's a new way of life. It's a new future. It's a new body that will be able to do new things. It's a whole new world of opportunities...
I calculated my BMI yesterday and it's not looking good. Apparently with a BMI of 39.4, I'm morbidly obese. It scares me. I've had so many health issues over the last 2 years and spent so much time in the hospital even this year alone that I don't wanna think about causing myself additional health issues. I was hospitalized 4 times this year for a recurring staph infection. None of my health issues were caused by my weight but I know if I don't do something about it, then I will be signing up for early heart disease, diabetes, cancer, and a thousand other terrible health concerns.
I have to change...for a better life and no one's stopping me but me.
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