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Fell off the wagon this weekend due to no support from my family and no sleep due to the fiance's snoring. sometimes I feel so Trapped. I am so disappointed with myself that I packed my bags at 3am this morning. I am trying so hard to better myself and nobody around me is. I have even slept in the garage in my car to get away from the snoring. I just give up and feel like crying at work today. I feel so alone. All I have is a numb heart and a picture of what I wish I looked like on my phone. I have not even slept in over four months. with zero sympathy from my other half. does not care his snoring is driving me into depression and being desperate. How can I improve myself and achieve goals when I'm trying alone. Then end up sleeping in a bloody garage :'( even when I gym after work I get nagged the entire time for supper. I'm already tired from work... I already forcing myself to exercise.. now someone is nagging me for dinner making me even loose count or feel guilty everyone is waiting on me for dinner. So I packed my bags at 3 am ready to not return the rest of the week. Maybe if I just disappear.... it's all I want. a fresh star where I can be me... achieve my goals.... breath...
sorry for venting...
but I'm tired.
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1339 kcal
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Fat: 71.03g | Prot: 47.88g | Carbs: 136.83g.
Breakfast: Coffee (Brewed From Grounds), Nature's Choice Pumpkin Seeds, Health Connection Wholefoods Sunflower Seeds, Jungle Oats. Lunch: Beef Sausage, Cabbage (with Salt, Drained, Cooked, Boiled). Dinner: Blue Cheese, Cheddar Cheese. Snacks/Other: Chocolate Croissant, Doughnut, Woolworths Balsamic Vinegar, Beetroot Juice, Mixed Vegetable Juice (Vegetables Other Than Tomato), Oranges. more...
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