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just reviewed my journal entries - i guess i chose to fall off the wagon lots in the past few months - this is prob why my body reacted by no weight loss. many of the indiscretions before xmas was just see my body reaction to the food. these indiscretions - well cheats - we not aimed at satisfying a craving but to "fit in" as i was out with friends or remembering my old life when i would reward myself with food. Happy times = Good food, but in that life sad life = food as well. As for this xmas i chose to stop my diet of 2 weeks and be "normal". well as i found out normal is not that style of eating. My body let me know this in spades. I also felt bloated and never felt full, my energy level plummeted. I awoke to some aches and pains and my body felt older. By the first week i avoided - well more like didnt want - sweets or xmas baking. I ate chips but sparingly, but I also increase my carb intake with potatoes and noodles. My whole food diet was still out the window. I found my self craving a large salad or a veggie stir fry which of course i didnt indulge in. I guess the 2nd week i want to keep up the old way of eating just to see how my body would react. By the end of the 2nd week i felt myself becoming accustom to the aches and pains, the bloating, the constant need to eat. I can see why people go back to the old way of eating after much success in weight loss, you first get to feel "normal", when you go out for supper with ppl, without having to get asked if your on a diet. in a short window your know that this way of eating is not healthy but you do get accustom to it again.
However during this 'fall off' i keep saying i cant wait to start my normal eating again. This told me that I want to change my eating habits and i do enjoy what i normally eat and and that my normal is now whole foods without processed or high carb foods. I should be proud that i am eating healthier and not look at this as a diet but a choice in change in lifestyle that i enjoy. Its been a few days since i have returned to my new way of eating and my body feels better, some old habits kicked back in, such as bored or idle eating but with a filling meal proper hydration i find it hard to even have enough room in my tummy for a snack. However i am working in that and filling that need to idle snack with exercise and movement.
This last 2 weeks have shown me a lot and has reminded me why i started thus journey. Weight loss was never the goal at the start, it was a benefit but not the main goal. The main goal was to feel healthier and allow myself to enjoy life and movement again. The past few months the scale has clouded what i was doing, i felt myself becoming a slave to the scale and trying to find self worth in the scale and meeting a weight loss deadline that I had started to impose. Instead of focusing on a healthier body and a healthy relationship with food.
Like i said before it has taken years of abuse to get to this level its gonna take more that a cpl of months to reverse that.
Here is to the new year, a new me and a renewed sense of journey.
View Diet Calendar, 08 January 2013:
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1879 kcal
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Fat: 134.00g | Prot: 125.84g | Carbs: 57.48g.
Breakfast: Whey Protein Isolate, metamucil. Lunch: olive oil, Soya Sauce, Minced Garlic, Mushrooms, Chinese Cabbage (Bok-Choy, Pak-Choi), Broccoli, Pork Chops or Roasts (Loin Blade, Bone-In), Pepper or Hot Sauce. Dinner: olive oil, Shrimp Scampi, Pepper or Hot Sauce, Minced Garlic, Soya Sauce, Pork Chops or Roasts (Loin Blade, Bone-In), Mushrooms, Broccoli. more...
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4126 kcal
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Exercise:
Desk Work - 8 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours, Sitting - 8 hours. more...
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