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When I divorced 10 years ago I weighed 180lbs. I became a single mom with 2 girls in middle school.
I lost 50 lbs in a year mainly because I had to do exercise to rehab from knee surgery. After the weight was coming off because of that, I just got motivated. Mostly by joining a gym and exercising like crazy, daily. I didn't not go on any diet and there was plenty of crap and mac & chz in the house because of the kids.
I actually enjoyed the exercise, I look forward to it and missed it when I missed a day. It was the only "ME" time I had what with being soccer mom & band mom.
Over the last 5 years, I've begun to pack back on about 30lbs.
The girls gave me LOTS of problems as teenagers. They threw every curve ball they had at me. Even drug addiction, which I am still dealing with for one of them.
I don't know what my problem is besides that I'm depressed, stressed, I quit smoking a year ago and the moral at work is in the toilet because of the boss we have.
Carbs are my comfort
I tend to eat more at work than at home. Mainly because I'm on a see food diet at work. I don't have a lot of money for groceries so I just don't buy all that crap for home. But I'm still finding plenty of carbs to eat at home.
Lately I have been bedtime snarfing. I don't know what comes over me doing that. it's like I don't know what I'm doing until it's already done.
Because of the weight, my knees are giving me probs again. I need to change my eating habits and exercise in order to save my knees but it's a double edged sword. My knees hurt when exercising.
I joined weight watchers in January. My friend did really well on it a few years prior but then she got a boyfriend and gained it all back. We jointed together. She said the plan is WAY DIFFERENT than before. They have raised the points and the cheater points so you only lose so slow, it doesn't keep you motivated and the cost drains your bank. 40 bucks a month to do what a laxative will do. ppfftt !! We quit after 3 months.
I turned 49 this month and my single status is terminal.
Partly because I have little opportunity to meet anyone but mostly because my confidence is in the toilet.
I KNOW WHAT I GOTTA DO, I JUST CAN'T MAKE MYSELF DO IT.
I went for my yearly, girly check up this week and vented to my doctor. She recommended a 1200 calorie a day diet for awhile to shed some pounds and maybe then, I will get motivated to exercise.
I found this site while looking up carbs and calories of food to buy this weekend. I want to start Monday.
So here I am and that's my story
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